Bassa Contemplates..

This is fairly a straight forward word. Believe it or not, we all have targets… from the day we are born, to the day we die. When you have children, not only do you set yourself more targets, you set your children a few of them too. They grow up harbouring them.. Its the only way to survive. Strangely, its almost a synonym for “hope” nowadays.

So you get used to setting targets in your life. In some you succeed, in some you don’t… The more you succeed, the more you feel confident. But there comes a moment in life when all of your existence was in some way directed towards one target. Accomplishment of which, would have led to a greater peace…. but due to some inert karma which set off in the wrong direction, things get out of hand and you no longer have full control. You at the mercy of someone or several others. No longer does the sun shine as bright, nor the music sound tempting… life turns into a drag.

Well, this is how I feel. Being a foreign qualified doctor here in Sri Lanka, i’m stuck in a virtual no mans land. The reason being, a simple examination process being withheld. All foreign qualified doctors have to face a set of exams to be able to practice. Fair enough. What if, these exams just aren’t held… Failing these exams was my worst fear… But I stand corrected.

Due to some other medical professionals attempting to face the same exam, the authorities concerned have “frozen” these exams. So no exams… no registration as a practioner… so no job…

You calm yourself… you try other things… but for the first time in life you haven’t been able to accomplish a target.. just because there was no way to face it. Slowly it turns life into a drag…

I work at place where I’m confused emotionally. I see many serving the common good, but trapped in worlds of their own, unable to break free. Cornered by fate and pushed forward to survive, they are masters in their fields. Their diversity is their stronghold, their simpleness their humility
Amidst such a crowd, I’m rendered helpless, as I am to sympathize, rejoice and live as they do. One most intriguing character is ******. Simple, charm, innocently flirtatious, and knowledgeable, she stands out from the crowd. She has a great ability to catch the hearts of people and twiddle with their feelings… especially mine.
Though completely ignorant of my world, ignorant of my delights, she is very concentrated on the one love of her life… medicine. Fate has been hard on her, and never has love blinded her. She acts according to her rationale, never crossing the borders. She intuitively feels danger and avoids it. Completely ignorant to the vibrations of others, she lives in her own cave, haunted by the fearful echoes at night. A dreamer at heart, scared to make a mistake, she ventures through life enjoying her latest victory of finishing med school.
Her principle is simple. Just pass through the miseries of life, and not to indulge in them. Brave to take on any challenge, she is firm and of strong character.

Her far sighted knowledge makes me admire her. Her complete ignorance of the world and it’s partialities angers me. Her serenity evokes respect in me. Her bluntness dismays me. Her open heartedness dissolves me. Her rebelliousness frightens me.

Rebellious at heart, only her rationale and kind heartedness overpowers it. This is her saving. Searching for all the answers in life, she looks to find a person who she can look up to. Someone she can adore, someone she can worship. The search is on….

Well, it’s only fair that I introduce myself….
“Bassa” is a Sri Lankan word meaning “Owl”… Don’t worry, I didn’t appoint it to myself.. It’s my friends to blame. It’s common for Sri Lankan teens and youths to create “card names” for each other. It’s all based on the fact that Every joke has a truth in it
So who else can see your short-comings or talents than your nearest friends? This “card name” appointing business is not a craze, but more of the traditional thing for us. We barely use our real names… so i figure it’s cool.

Anyway, I’m Sri Lankan, (as you’ve already guessed), and proud to be one. I lived more than two thirds of my life abroad. Now I’m settled in Sri Lanka.

Speaking of which, has it’s own pluses and minuses. It’s taken me a good deal of patience and nerves to deal with. “A land like no Other” as Sri Lanka is often termed, seemed to be ironically TRUE.

By Profession, I’m a medic. Yes, i’m the person you run to with your kid or your cough and colds. This field was even harder to master, but left with few choices, it’s upto you to make your own miracle happen.

By abilities, I fare well in many fields. I love the world of computers. I’m an amatuer electronist. I play the Guitar. I’m a netizen from 1998. I’m crazy about Networks and the INTERNET. I can cook. Oh yes, and I’m a philosopher at heart. I also smoke. I am fluent in Russian. I want to learn Tamil. I’m Ok in Sinhala.

So that’s me in a nutshell..